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[sign in to see URL] had a nice long post, and stupid me accidently deleted the whole damn [sign in to see URL]'ll try to do it again.

As most of you know, I can't tell you anything of the actual initiation itself, but I can tell you about the preparations and how I felt.

I got to the HPs and HP's house about 6:30pm on Saturday. We sat around and talked, and I ate a little something to keep from having a blood sugar issue later on. After their son, who is 4, went to bed at 8, the HP went down to finalize stuff and get the rest of stuff set up. HP and I had been in the library talking, so they left me there with some nice music, and instructions to do my Watcher meditation. A bit later, the HPs came up and gave me a cordial glass about half full of some pear liquer she'd made.. "to help relax me" she said. I didn't need relaxing (I was almost asleep as it was), but I took it anyway, thinking it may have been part of everything. A bit later, HP came up and told me I'd see a side of him I've never seen before, and he didn't want me to be afraid. I told him I wasn't afraid, and wouldn't be, and that I was OK. The whole time he was talking to me, he held my gaze, while rubbing my arms. I think he had some kind of oil or something on his hands, cause my arms really smelled good after [sign in to see URL]. I was instructed to keep on with the meditation till HP came up to prepare my bath. She finally came up and got the bath water running, then took me in and had me undress and get in the tub. She washed my back for me, then told me to fishing bathing then to sit back and relax until they were ready for me. When she came back up, she asked me about, for about the 5th time if I was sure I wanted to do [sign in to see URL] which I gave an emphatic YES. She had me stand up, then rinsed me off with water and oil. I then dried and she put a light cotton "robe" thing on me. I went downstairs to the basement, and was told not to go further than the bottom step, as she had to blindfold me. I [sign in to see URL] biggie (even tho I hate not being able to see). She then told me to take her arm and follow her. From this point, I can't tell you what [sign in to see URL] because I don't remember, but because I'm not supposed to. This is the 'Keep Silent' part of the Craft.
I do remember feeling so very strong, in all aspects of myself. My convictions and resolve never once wavered as I went through the ordeal of initiation. If anything, it became stronger. My voice, when I had to answer, was strong and clear. I remember, when I was finally able to take off the blindfold and the robe, I had such a sense of freedom and strength. Little did I know that was about to become even stronger.

Afterwards, as we sat with wine and cakes, we talked, and they asked if I had any [sign in to see URL] at that point I didn't. They had prepared me so well there was no need to ask anything. We finally went upstairs and had a really nice meal. We almost always eat at the kitchen island now, rather than at the [sign in to see URL]'s more [sign in to see URL]. I love that.

Finally, about 1 am on Sunday, HP went on to bed and HPs and I sat up and talked till we were both about to fall asleep, around 2am. I went up and got my CPAP ready, then fell into bed. They have 3 cats, but only one is allowed in the house (the other 2 refuse to ask to go out to the box or yard)...and he decided to sleep with [sign in to see URL] name is [sign in to see URL] what a sweety. However, I think they have a ghost kitty, who was up and down on the bed all friggin night. Between ghost kitty and the dreams I had, I got very little sleep. Finally at 6:30 I just got up. I was up before the rest of the [sign in to see URL] I went to the library and was reading when everyone else finally got up a bit after 7.

I'll post the dreams and see what y'all make of them. I know what the second one was, without a doubt, but I'll see if y'all get from it what I did. The others, I'm not too sure about. I have an inkling on 2 of [sign in to see URL] first and 5th dreams, but the [sign in to see URL] me to a point. [sign in to see URL] 3rd dream I pretty much know what it was too. All of these dreams are fairly short.

*Dreams posted in another [sign in to see URL] this was too [sign in to see URL]*

Sunday was a strange day. HP, their son and I went to Bristol to Wal*Mart to put some film in and get a few things.
I was fine up till we were almost back [sign in to see URL] I all of a sudden got violently nauseated. I told her if I said pull [sign in to see URL] best do it quickly. NOt long after I said [sign in to see URL] had to have her pull over. I was out before we stopped fully, throwing up. I checked my bloodsugar right there on the side of the [sign in to see URL] it was fine. After throwing up, I felt a dab better. We were only about 5 blocks from their [sign in to see URL]. Got to the house, I went in and sat in the library where it was cool. She put some music on for me and left me be for about 30 minutes, coming to check on me every so often. I finally felt better, and went and fixed me a PB&J for [sign in to see URL] I put some highlights in her hair for [sign in to see URL] about the time I was almost done, the wave of nausea hit me again, and I broke out in a horrible [sign in to see URL] like I'd done in the truck on the way home. I didn't throw up again, thankfully. I went and washed my face in some really cold water, which helped. As soon as I got her hair done, I went down to the [sign in to see URL] and got in. I stayed in the pool for probably about an [sign in to see URL] and a half. It helped. I finally left thier house about 6:30 yesterday [sign in to see URL] home about 7:30. Was in bed by [sign in to see URL]'t get up this morning till almost 9:30.

[sign in to see URL] [sign in to see URL] [sign in to see URL]. I've not had a great deal of sleep this past week. I think between excitement of the initiation, and just plain ole [sign in to see URL] then the heat (it's been horrible [sign in to see URL] 90's and extreme humidity)..my body finally said...'ENOUGH!'

I'm still feeling a bit puny [sign in to see URL] and just really worn [sign in to see URL] emotionally, I'm on top of the world!!!!!

[sign in to see URL], what do y'all think of the dreams? And I'll eventually post what I [sign in to see URL] if y'all see what I do.

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It does sound intense. I do hope you're feeling better now.

*hugs*

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A Saijen Witch.... hummmm....
congratulations on making thru and becoming one with your coven.

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Woooooooooohoooooooooooo I am so very happy for you.

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Thanks ladies. Not sure what the deal was with me being [sign in to see URL] I'm OK now. Just had a couple of off days I guess.

did you all read the dreams post? I was hoping some of you would inject your views on the dreams. I know what I think, but would like to see if anyone else picks up on the same things I did.

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Wow Saijen! emoticon Ya did it Sister! CONGRATS and {{{BIG HUGS}} I was thinking of you last night and almost got up to post as I didn't see anything up til yesterday afternoon from you. Glad all went well. Heres a TON of healing energies your way, sorry to hear you got sick like that, you must have been exhausted and so spent.

I'll try to get to the dreams post of yours here before i unplug and pack the puter.

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